Man. I can totally see how sleep deprivation is an effective torture technique. Seriously. It makes a person feel like they are going crazy. Between my sick two year old and my 6 week old ... I may lose my mind this week. I know lots of people have it worse so I don't want to complain TOO much. Only a little bit.
I'm not going to do anything today. Just rest. I think I keep thinking that I should do stuff while one or the other is sleeping but I really just need to let that go. It's so different with two. I don't know why I thought that one was so hard. I think that the postpartum depression and septic sacroiliac joint might have had something to do with it. It's not SO hard with two... it's just all about timing. And last night J was up coughing almost all night and Z wouldn't go to sleep til after midnight. I think I got four hours. Which isn't horrible but when it seems like it's every night it can get to me.
Anyway... I'll write more later. I just need to lay on the couch for a while.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
debbie downer?
I swear I'm not a negative person (most of the time) I just love Gilda Radner and that's the name of her biography. seriously.
Having said that... I'm having a bad day. We've just had company for two months solid and the last person left and I'm a mess. I just had a baby in August and she's wonderful and beautiful and I have a two year old who is imaginative and wonderful and beautiful and I'm home alone with both of them. yikes!
My Dad just left to go home to BC and I had an awesome time with him and now I don't know what to do with myself. It's been a REALLY stressful summer. In-law issues... parent issues... having a new baby... and just dealing with the hand that has been dealt. I know it's nothing in light of all the things that are going on with other friends and loved ones but I think I'm entitled to at least one bad day, right?
Having said that... I am SO blessed. My husband is my best friend and he is the love of my life (how lucky am I to have both in one?) I have two beautiful and healthy daughters... my family is all still living.... I have a house ... a dog... a minivan... could life get any better? I suppose it could if I could just get my spiritual life on track. but that will forever be a work in progress. I am a work in progress.
Anyway... I don't really know what I want to accomplish with this 'blog' but I just thought I'd try it out. seems like the new thing to do.
Having said that... I'm having a bad day. We've just had company for two months solid and the last person left and I'm a mess. I just had a baby in August and she's wonderful and beautiful and I have a two year old who is imaginative and wonderful and beautiful and I'm home alone with both of them. yikes!
My Dad just left to go home to BC and I had an awesome time with him and now I don't know what to do with myself. It's been a REALLY stressful summer. In-law issues... parent issues... having a new baby... and just dealing with the hand that has been dealt. I know it's nothing in light of all the things that are going on with other friends and loved ones but I think I'm entitled to at least one bad day, right?
Having said that... I am SO blessed. My husband is my best friend and he is the love of my life (how lucky am I to have both in one?) I have two beautiful and healthy daughters... my family is all still living.... I have a house ... a dog... a minivan... could life get any better? I suppose it could if I could just get my spiritual life on track. but that will forever be a work in progress. I am a work in progress.
Anyway... I don't really know what I want to accomplish with this 'blog' but I just thought I'd try it out. seems like the new thing to do.
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