gloria gaynor

so... it's been over a month and i'm still visiting crazy land. I am also planning on going to BC for a long time. I need my family. I need a change of environment and I need to get better. It's not happening here so I'm off for a new adventure. The kids are coming with me but I am going to ache when B doesn't come with us. We can't afford for him to be off of work. This is the only way that no one suffers financially. If anyone in the world reads this blog... please pray for me. It's hard to keep the suicidal thoughts out of my head but I'm fighting. It sucks when you have to fight against your own brain. I don't even know how that works.

til next time...